How on earth can I have 7 years of college, two degrees, a life of living well, and still be so dolty? Is it perhaps because I went to college in the 70's? My brain is still only 40. Either I'm not aware enough, or I lived without a brain for years. Don't even ask.

Life has purpose, if not the one we choose. Ten years ago I said I believed in God, but didn't live it. Today I still believe, despite the horrors I've endured, and live with the consequences of having not payed attention to my own life. See? Dolty. I'm so glad God loves us even if we're idiots. And now I pay attention.

That said, I'm the happiest I've ever been, in spite of living with terminal cancer (I was given 6 months to live - 9 1/2 years ago) and a ridiculous loss of abilities. Like walking without tripping on my own feet, and remembering people's names. (Wait, did I ever do that?) If you stick with me, perhaps you'll see how pain and stupidity can lead to good things. Seriously.